I love my family, husband, sister wife, all of our kids (5 are hers, and 1 is mine). My husband and I have been married for 3 years, and he has been married to my sister wife for 16 years. They have been through a lot together, which includes trusting that the Lord will provide when they lived in poverty together. They share an amazing bond, and my sister wife has a lot of experience being married and taking care of a husband. I feel honestly the two of us, my sister wife and myself full-fill this scripture:
Titus 2:3-5 "The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things; That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children, To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed."
I am definitely the younger woman learning how to love my husband, children, to be obedient to my husband, and a keeper of the home. She has all the experience, and I've barley got my foot in the water. She's also closer to him in age. He is 45 and she is 40, but I'm only 30. So there is also a level of maturity that I don't have. I'm trying to learn how to be a good wife, and he's patient with me, and thankfully my sister wife is too. She isn't catty, backstabbing, or manipulative. Sometimes our personalities do rub each other the wrong way. She's more serious and I'm carefree, also she's extroverted and I'm very much an introvert.
So here's my point, sorry it took me so long to reach it. I feel like I'm always hiding behind my sister wife's light. I tell myself oh she wouldn't have messed up like I did, or she would have served our husband better than me and not complain. Our I feel like my husband talks to her more because they have more in common, or I'm the fun wife to go out with and joke with but not the one to talk business with. I even sometimes catch myself thinking that he doesn't miss me as much when we are apart and he is with her. I know I need to get out of this game of comparing myself, and that Satan is probably just messing with my mind too much. I just wanted to voice all of this to get it out, to voice it to women who understand this life, and who wouldn't say "oh look it must not be working," or "you're in that situation because it's unnatural and you shouldn't be." My side of the family (except my mom and grandmom) expect me to run back to my hometown any minute saying they are right and I was wrong to do this.
Thank you all for your time! I really hope to hear from you all! I know that this is all probably just growing pains and will get better with time. I really do feel called to be in this life and part of this family. I have no regrets or doubts.
Titus 2:3-5 "The aged women likewise, that they be in behaviour as becometh holiness, not false accusers, not given to much wine, teachers of good things; That they may teach the young women to be sober, to love their husbands, to love their children, To be discreet, chaste, keepers at home, good, obedient to their own husbands, that the word of God be not blasphemed."
I am definitely the younger woman learning how to love my husband, children, to be obedient to my husband, and a keeper of the home. She has all the experience, and I've barley got my foot in the water. She's also closer to him in age. He is 45 and she is 40, but I'm only 30. So there is also a level of maturity that I don't have. I'm trying to learn how to be a good wife, and he's patient with me, and thankfully my sister wife is too. She isn't catty, backstabbing, or manipulative. Sometimes our personalities do rub each other the wrong way. She's more serious and I'm carefree, also she's extroverted and I'm very much an introvert.
So here's my point, sorry it took me so long to reach it. I feel like I'm always hiding behind my sister wife's light. I tell myself oh she wouldn't have messed up like I did, or she would have served our husband better than me and not complain. Our I feel like my husband talks to her more because they have more in common, or I'm the fun wife to go out with and joke with but not the one to talk business with. I even sometimes catch myself thinking that he doesn't miss me as much when we are apart and he is with her. I know I need to get out of this game of comparing myself, and that Satan is probably just messing with my mind too much. I just wanted to voice all of this to get it out, to voice it to women who understand this life, and who wouldn't say "oh look it must not be working," or "you're in that situation because it's unnatural and you shouldn't be." My side of the family (except my mom and grandmom) expect me to run back to my hometown any minute saying they are right and I was wrong to do this.
Thank you all for your time! I really hope to hear from you all! I know that this is all probably just growing pains and will get better with time. I really do feel called to be in this life and part of this family. I have no regrets or doubts.
. Choose to grow and conform to His image, everything else won’t matter. If you ‘feel’ weak in an area, ask your sw for the knowledge so you can gain experience or ask google!! Don’t get caught up in comparing yourself against someone, you haven’t walked in those shoes, but learn from her knowledge and experience. Lack of knowledge and experience is easily gained by doing, asking and learning. Don’t forget to be willing to teach her.
