Whoa Nelly! I think you were fishing for me there weren't ya Zec?
Did you just say "
Code of Hammurabi" and "
Talmud" and "
non-believing source" in one breath?
The Code of Hammurabi was invented by Pagans, the Talmud is a recorded discussion about scripture, how to apply scripture to various legal situations, and how this meshes with accepted/rejected positions; written by believers in the G-d of Israel and many of the discussions are from the time of Yeshua or before. With the 400 years of silence it's kind of hard to fault the Rabbis for having some conversations.
*** next part I'm just responding to your current position; maybe you'll like what I have to say, maybe others in the same boat will appreciate it, take it or leave it as you see fit ***
Now questioning Torah observance; that's being intellectually honest so who could fault you for that?
One thing that may be helpful for you, and others in your situation is to separate out the parts of Torah which predate Torah, i.e. the Sabbath day. The Sabbath day is blessed before there is any Torah and Adam rishon observed it even writing a psalm about it.
As such, the status of the Sabbath day may be unaffected by any of the Torah / non-Torah talk (as is the Malkhitsedeq priesthood as mentioned earlier in the thread).
Some may include also pure / impure animals in the "pre-Torah" items as they were known. Maybe try those things on for size and see if you have shalom in your heart about it. After observing all the pre-Torah stuff with the right attitude (i.e. loving G-d and having an attitude of gratitude to know about these things even), then maybe it's time to revisit what needs doing today and what doesn't?
In my experience, most folks have a few dishes they love that are Kosher and it's really not a big deal to avoid pork; at least living in the 1st world where everything is available in Turkey substitute forms or whatever.
Certainly there are aspects of the Torah which don't need doing any more, or at least can't be done any more.
(I'd submit that killing our own Paschal lamb is one of the things that's either been handled for us already, or it can't be done properly any more
For those who love the Torah, it's actually fairly effortless and goes on autopilot after you've been doing it a while; granted it helps to have a support system or to borrow one instead of always trying to reinvent the wheel as many Hebrew roots folks do.
Perhaps the question is wrong. Maybe the question isn't "to do or not to do Torah" but "to make it excruciatingly difficult or not?" Yeshua said "my yoke is easy" yet to me it often seems many Hebrew roots folks way of observing is very painful and not at all enjoyable. Maybe being grafted in to Israel means doing Torah Israel's way?
Maybe not who knows. I'm just rolling.
At the end of the day, if you just do the things which predate Torah and you're wrestling with the text, and you've got the Messiah, well you've got an answer you can give on the judgement day. I might start with "Hashem, why was it so confusing! Why was Paul so difficult to understand if you wanted me to do all that stuff? Why are there verses which seem contradictory?" Not
accusingly just
wrestle-lingly.
Even if Full blown Torah observation is required by you; why not follow the way Israel does this for baalei-teshuva (those who are coming back to Torah)? Start with Shabbat, and
gradually add stuff
slowly over time; otherwise folks get overwhelmed by the restrictions on their life and it doesn't feel anything like a blessing. When it's done slowly, incrementally, it's not so noticeable even.
OK sorry I wrote so much, better end this before it's a full page.
In short don't be so hard on yourself brothers!
