Praise the Lord i found this link., Dude, like they told me, we sometimes get to the Lord by the worse possiible ways!
I drink, found myself drinking to bury my troubles. I see it all over the Bible. I see it isnt to be abused. The last time i was "in church", i was heavily convicted not to drink, ..............by all the brothers.
I have no opinion on it. I certainly dont judge a man that drinks, I certainly dont tell those that absatin its ok. The Lord may show me something different, but when he does, it will probably be a persoanl revealtion, as in, "hey john, this is what YOU need to do"
I'm starting to realize (Im renewed in Christ), they just dont teach you in church how much Jesus loves you, you just have to keep seeking Him, you will find out. Seems to me, the more you can accept, the more love there is.
So back on subject, rough day yesterday, lost a business deal i was counting on, but honestly didnt blow up on the customer (would have before), bowed my head & prayed God would give my cometitor the wisdom to really do a good job for this customer. & im not lying, i'd be kinda embarrassed to say this as it sounds so mushy. never the less, i was down a little, went home, had a small "scuffle" with the wife, closest thing we have had to an argument over poly, but ended in prayer.
So anyhow, last night, I had 2 choices, i was wore out, been drinking coffe, needed to sleep, I could read the Bible or drink a few beers..I went for the beer, calling in my memory somewhere the wine is for sorrow.....LOL, stupid Human i am...drank some, went to bed, 6 beers, i can polish off a ton without a noticable "drunk state"
took the edge off, sleep came easy
the morning took its toll, i woke up & just knew i made the wrong choice, cryed about it in prayer, told my wife, i was sad, i needed that fellowship & blew it on a few beers.....1440 minutes in a day, when they are gone they are gone....THAT my friends, was alchohol abuse in my opinion
I even told my wife, "ya know, the Bible talks about a drink for sorrow, but I spent a year and 1/2 drinking in sorrow, now that Im seeking God, he lifts that sorrow, drinking really dont work for me on sorrow, on the other hand, i sure enjoy a beer when im happy!"